People are a strange breed. We're all so different and yet so similar. We all want the same things really. We want to be loved, liked, appreciated, respected...so how can we share so many of the same humanistic qualities, and think so differently? How can we be so close yet so far from eachother? How come I see it my way and you see it your way? It's funny how two people can be so different and get along so well. I have a friend like that. If you looked at him and then proceeded to look at me, you would never expect us to be friends. But yet, we are. We get along swimmingly and I have so much love and respect, even faith in him. He's one of my best friends and I'm proud to call him so.
I'm glad that people are different, it's what makes this world such a unique setting. Thus, making our lives a bit more colorful. It's just strange to me how things fall into place sometimes. How people meet, how relationships start from nothing and grow into something that lasts forever. How that first glance into someones eyes can change your life forever. I've been fortunate enough to have that experience. But what happens when the feelings aren't returned? Are you destined to love and faun over that one person forever? that one person who you mean absolutely nothing to? If this is the case, I have to ask, is it worth it? From where I'm sitting right now I would say no.
Oct 19, 2008
Oct 18, 2008
Beautiful Lies
I wrote this a while ago but it's still pretty important to me.
Sept. 21,2008
Does being beautiful result in being alone?
What can it really get a person other then jealousy from others, or intimidation? Even if your the nicest person in the world, and good to all of your friends and family members, people will still look past that and see you as something your not.
Either the one you want is too afraid to approach you or only wants you for one thing. Why does it have to be a double edge sword? Why can't there just be appreciation for beauty in it's purest form? When did lust out weigh beauty and why is it so unapproachable?
For example, I know someone who is very attractive and when I looked at him for the first time I thought to myself, he is too beautiful and he must not be a good person because of how gorgeous he is. I instantly judged him because of his appeal and it made me think, why do I instantly jump the gun and assume he has a crappy personality because of his good looks? Why does being an attractive person mean that he is jaded and only interested in being around others who are just like him? (looks wise).
Maybe none of this makes sense but I feel that there is some price to pay for being beautiful and dispite what so many think, it's not an easy path to lead.
Sept. 21,2008
Does being beautiful result in being alone?
What can it really get a person other then jealousy from others, or intimidation? Even if your the nicest person in the world, and good to all of your friends and family members, people will still look past that and see you as something your not.
Either the one you want is too afraid to approach you or only wants you for one thing. Why does it have to be a double edge sword? Why can't there just be appreciation for beauty in it's purest form? When did lust out weigh beauty and why is it so unapproachable?
For example, I know someone who is very attractive and when I looked at him for the first time I thought to myself, he is too beautiful and he must not be a good person because of how gorgeous he is. I instantly judged him because of his appeal and it made me think, why do I instantly jump the gun and assume he has a crappy personality because of his good looks? Why does being an attractive person mean that he is jaded and only interested in being around others who are just like him? (looks wise).
Maybe none of this makes sense but I feel that there is some price to pay for being beautiful and dispite what so many think, it's not an easy path to lead.
The Begining.
A friend of mine suggested to me lastnight (10/17/08) that I start a blog. Since I want to be a writer, it seemed like a good idea. I figured this could serve as an outlet that will allow me to express myself and release some unwanted tension. I've been through a lot this past year and I've discovered I have more things to say than I thought. It's time I let it out. Who knows, maybe even a few of those skeletons will come out of the closet with it. Maybe some I never even knew I had.
Some of my friends know my situation. Others know it, but not in detail. One thing I've learned about myself is that it's not easy for me to be completely open and honest about the things that I have to deal with. Even with a friend I've known for years, that I know I could say anything to. I've had to ask myself a few times, "Why is that ?"
I think there is a small part of me that is afraid of judgement. That someone will see I don't have it all figured out like I tend to think I do. There's also the realization that if I do speak up, those problems have now become real and I've also learned this past year that denial is a very comfortable place. But even so, I can't forget what this year has taught me and all the things I've learned about my family. Things that I never even knew existed, let alone where problems.
If anyone does choose to read this, may you take it for what it's worth. This is purely for my benefit. However, I can't deny that there's a part of me that hopes I can inspire someone in the process. That my words can be your strength, my emotions can be your enlightenment, my struggles can become your testament that you are stronger than you think.
My one true goal in life has always been to be able to affect someones life in a positive way. The way my life has been affected and influenced my so many of my friends.
To my friends: I would be lost without.
Some of my friends know my situation. Others know it, but not in detail. One thing I've learned about myself is that it's not easy for me to be completely open and honest about the things that I have to deal with. Even with a friend I've known for years, that I know I could say anything to. I've had to ask myself a few times, "Why is that ?"
I think there is a small part of me that is afraid of judgement. That someone will see I don't have it all figured out like I tend to think I do. There's also the realization that if I do speak up, those problems have now become real and I've also learned this past year that denial is a very comfortable place. But even so, I can't forget what this year has taught me and all the things I've learned about my family. Things that I never even knew existed, let alone where problems.
If anyone does choose to read this, may you take it for what it's worth. This is purely for my benefit. However, I can't deny that there's a part of me that hopes I can inspire someone in the process. That my words can be your strength, my emotions can be your enlightenment, my struggles can become your testament that you are stronger than you think.
My one true goal in life has always been to be able to affect someones life in a positive way. The way my life has been affected and influenced my so many of my friends.
To my friends: I would be lost without.
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